Phobic Elements—Nightmares 恐惧元素——噩梦 A consistent feature of his clinical picture was the phobic elements in his pathology. These were frequently a problem for him, breaking out from time to time in a burst of phobic activity. By and large, however, he defended himself against these fears by a vigorously counterphobic attitude. He would complain that he was still haunted by the fears of his childhood, and would angrily deride himself for having these infantile fears. He insisted that he should be able to put them out of his mind and conduct his affairs in a more reasonable and adult manner. These phobic aspects of his personality also played a prominent role in his dream life. He would frequently have frightening and dreadful dreams in which people were beaten, burned, cut, and killed. These dreams would be populated with horrible monsters, and he would often awaken from them in a fit of terror. On occasion he would awaken screaming. These episodes were frightening to him, and he would fret that he was losing his mind and becoming crazy again. Occasionally he would dream of losing his mind and being put back into the hospital, with the fear that he would have to stay there for the rest of his life. 他临床表现的一个持续特征是病理中的恐惧症元素。这些问题经常困扰着他，不时地爆发出一阵恐惧症活动。然而，总的来说，他以一种强烈的反恐惧症态度来保护自己不受这些恐惧的影响。他会抱怨自己仍然被童年的恐惧所困扰，并会愤怒地嘲笑自己有这些幼稚的恐惧。他坚持认为自己应该能够把它们从脑海中驱除，以一种更理智和成熟的方式处理自己的事情。他性格中的这些恐惧症特征在他的梦境中也扮演着重要的角色。他经常会做可怕和恐怖的梦，梦中人们被打、被烧、被割、被杀。这些梦中充斥着可怕的怪物，他常常会从梦中惊醒，惊恐万分。有时他会尖叫着醒来。这些经历让他感到害怕，他担心自己会失去理智，再次变得疯狂。偶尔他会梦到自己失去理智，被送回医院，担心自己要在那里度过余生。 His dreams were sometimes a reflection of his waking concerns. One very striking instance of this was a dream he had in which he was a seal. He was caught on a beach where seal hunters were hitting the helpless seals over the head with heavy clubs, killing them and cutting them up with knives. The beach was covered with blood, and the air was rent with the terrified cries of helpless seals. He wanted to escape. He dove into the water and plunged deep to the bottom of the ocean and had to swim through a long dark tunnel. When he emerged he came upon a beach where there were no hunters. But there was a female seal there, and he began doing a "fire dance" which he described as a sort of mating dance. The dream expresses his usual feelings of helpless victimization, as a helpless seal subject to ruthless murder at the hands of the powerful hunters. He escapes into the protection of the female element—the darkness of the water's depths—and finds safety and consolation in the company of a female seal. The additional point of interest to this dream was the fact that it was dreamed during the period in which the trial of Bobby Seale—the militant Black Panther leader—was being featured in the headlines. This suggests Fred's further identification with the rebellious and disadvantaged groups, and that he saw himself in terms in which he envisioned Bobby Seale, as the helpless victim of the repressive and authoritarian elements of society. Fred felt strongly that Seale's trial was merely a thinly disguised attempt on the part of the authorities to "get" Seale. Seale's subsequent acquittal was a source of great glee for Fred. 他的梦有时是他清醒时担忧的反映。一个非常引人注目的例子就是他梦见自己是一只海豹。他被困在海滩上，海豹猎人们用沉重的棍棒击打无助的海豹的头部，杀死它们并用刀把它们切碎。海滩上到处都是血，空气中弥漫着无助海豹惊恐的哭喊声。他想逃跑。他潜入水中，深潜到海底，不得不游过一条漫长黑暗的海底隧道。当他浮出水面时，他来到了一片没有猎人的海滩。但那里有一只母海豹，他开始跳起“火舞”，他描述说这是一种交配舞。这个梦表达了他通常那种无助的受害感，就像一只无助的海豹在强大的猎人手中惨遭无情的杀害。他逃入女性元素的保护中——深水的黑暗——并在一只母海豹的陪伴下找到了安全和安慰。这个梦另一个有趣的地方是，它是在激进的黑豹党领袖鲍比·西尔[Bobby Seale，此人的姓氏Seale跟海豹seal非常像]受审期间梦见的，而当时这则新闻正成为头条新闻。这表明弗雷德进一步认同了反叛和弱势群体，他认为自己和鲍比·西尔一样，都是社会压迫和威权主义元素的无助受害者。弗雷德强烈认为，对西尔的审判只是当局企图“抓住”西尔的一个伪装得很拙劣的尝试。西尔后来被宣判无罪，这让弗雷德非常高兴。 Beside the severely disturbing anxiety dreams that Fred described, he also described a recurrent dream experience that was very frightening and distressing for him. He recalled having had severe nightmares for as long as he could remember. But even more disturbing than these dreadful and terrifying nightmares was the recurrent experience he had, an experience that tended to recur at times when he was particularly upset about something or particularly angry. He described a feeling of pressure on his chest that made it difficult for him to breathe. It was as though there were a heavy weight resting on his chest. It was a great weight crushing down on him and pressing the life out of him. He felt helpless and terribly frightened in these dreams. He described feeling totally paralyzed, unable to move or to get out from under the great crushing weight. The affect associated with this material was always one of terror and utter helplessness. 除了弗雷德描述的严重令人不安的焦虑梦之外，他还描述了一种经常出现的梦境，对他来说非常可怕和痛苦。他回忆起自己记事以来就一直做着可怕的噩梦。但比这些可怕和恐怖的噩梦更令人不安的是他反复出现的经历，这种经历往往在他对某件事特别心烦意乱或特别生气的时候出现。他描述了一种胸部受压的感觉，使他呼吸困难。就好像有一块沉重的石头压在他的胸口。那是一块巨大的石头压在他身上，把他的生命榨干。在这些梦中，他感到无助和极度害怕。他描述自己完全瘫痪了，无法动弹，也无法从巨大的重压下挣脱出来。与这种经历相关的情绪总是恐怖和完全的无助。