Gradual Decompensation 逐渐失代偿 Sally returned only to find things more chaotic and difficult than ever. She quickly decided that she could not take any more of it. She told Henry that she did not love him anymore, that she could not continue to live under these conditions, and that she was going to divorce him. She left and returned to her family. After this Henry collapsed completely. He became severely depressed and suicidal, and had to be hospitalized. He reconstituted quickly and remained in the hospital only a month. He had to drop out of school. However, Sally went ahead with the divorce. Henry decided to stay where he was and get a job. He worked for a time, intending to return to school when he felt able to do so. He was bitter and resentful about his relationship to Sally and about the divorce. He blamed her fully for what had happened. 萨莉回来后，发现一切比以前更加混乱和艰难。她很快决定，自己再也无法忍受了。她告诉亨利，她不再爱他，无法继续在这样的环境下生活，她要和他离婚。她离开后回到了娘家。此后，亨利彻底崩溃。他陷入了重度抑郁，产生了自杀念头，不得不住院治疗。但他很快就恢复了，只在医院住了一个月。他不得不退学。然而，萨莉还是坚持离了婚。亨利决定留在原地，找份工作。他工作了一段时间，打算等自己感觉能行的时候再回到学校。他对和萨莉的关系以及离婚的事感到痛苦和怨恨。他把一切都归咎于她。 It was not long after these events that he met Edna. She was a schoolteacher. She had been twice married previously and twice divorced. In his typical style, Henry was feeling lonely, abandoned, and lost after his wife had divorced him. He turned to Edna with long-frustrated needs for affection and warmth. Edna responded amply. They quickly developed an intense and highly sexual relationship. Henry recalled this whole episode with a sense of wonder. He recalled, "I never knew that there were so many ways of doing sex. She really knew her way around!" He wondered whether Edna was really a nymphomaniac; they spent nearly all their time together in bed. He finally decided to move in with Edna and they lived together for about six months. 这些事发生后没多久，他就遇到了埃德娜。她是一名学校教师。她之前结过两次婚，也离了两次婚。一如往常，在妻子离婚后，亨利感到孤独、被抛弃和迷茫。他转向埃德娜，寻求长久以来未能满足的关爱和温暖。埃德娜充分地回应了他。他们很快发展出了一段热烈而极具性张力的关系。亨利回忆起这段经历时，满是惊叹。他回忆道：“我从来不知道做爱有这么多方式。她真的很在行！”他想知道埃德娜是不是真的是个性欲亢进的人；他们几乎把所有在一起的时间都花在了床上。他最终决定搬去和埃德娜同住，他们一起生活了大约六个月。 As he became increasingly involved with her, his yearnings for a close and enduring relationship grew. He decided that he wanted to marry Edna. When he announced this intention to the family, there was an expectable explosion. The family was violently opposed to marrying a woman who had been twice divorced. They regarded her as a prostitute. His Uncle Clem and Aunt Mary were adamant. He could choose between Edna and them. If he chose Edna they would cut off any support financially and wanted to have nothing to do with him ever again in the future. 随着他与她的关系越来越深入，他对建立一段亲密而持久关系的渴望也日益增长。他决定要娶埃德娜。当他向家人宣布这一打算时，不出所料，家里炸开了锅。家人强烈反对他娶一个离过两次婚的女人。他们把她看成妓女。他的克莱姆叔叔和玛丽阿姨态度坚决。他必须在埃德娜和他们之间做出选择。如果他选择埃德娜，他们将切断一切经济支持，并且希望以后再也不要和他有任何往来。 Henry's rage was boundless. Once again his family had interfered in his life. Once again he had been made a helpless victim. They had tried to run his life ever since his mother died, and now they were doing it again. He became suicidal. He ran out and got a bottle of sleeping pills. Edna was frightened and called his doctor. When they reached him he had swallowed the pills and was comatose. He was felt to be psychotic at that point and was hospitalized again—this time for nearly a year. Henry recalled with particular bitterness that when it was decided to hospitalize him his father came and talked to the doctor. His father told the doctor. "This boy has had the best of everything!" He felt deeply resentful about his father's attitude. "I can't understand how they could be such pricks and bastards!" Henry exclaimed. He felt that his father and his family had never really cared anything about him. 亨利的愤怒无边无际。家人又一次干涉了他的生活。他再次成为了无助的受害者。自从母亲去世后，他们就一直试图掌控他的生活，而现在，他们故技重施。他产生了自杀的念头。他跑出去买了一瓶安眠药。埃德娜吓坏了，赶紧给他的医生打了电话。当他们找到他时，他已经吞下了药，陷入了昏迷。当时他被认为是精神错乱，再次被送往医院——这一次住了将近一年。亨利特别痛苦地回忆起，当他被决定送医时，他的父亲来和医生谈了谈。他的父亲告诉医生：“这小子什么都拥有最好的！”他对父亲的态度深感愤恨。“我不明白他们怎么能这么混蛋，这么卑鄙！”亨利喊道。他觉得父亲和家人从未真正关心过他。 There is little doubt that this was a severe regressive episode. There were no hallucinations or frank delusions, but his recollections and impressions were confused and disorganized. He was deeply depressed. The conditions at the hospital—a state institution in the Midwest—appalled and frightened him. He saw how unhappy other patients in the hospital were and how their lives were ruined. He feared that he would fall completely apart and end up a vegetable like so many others. He felt absolutely abandoned and alone. There was no one to whom he could turn. He felt that his father and his family had completely turned against him and abandoned him. Gradually his condition improved and his depression receded. When he was finally released from the hospital he had nowhere to go; there was nowhere that he felt he belonged. He stayed in that area for a while. He got a job and was able to support himself. But he felt isolated, he felt that he wasn't making it. He had difficulty making friends and finding a place for himself. He finally got the idea that he needed to get to another place, make a new life for himself, get a new job, and, above all, find some woman to whom he could get close, with whom he could have a warm and lasting relationship, whom he could love and who would love and take care of him. Thus he decided to come to Boston. 毫无疑问，这是一次严重的退行发作。虽然没有出现幻觉或明显的妄想，但他的记忆和印象变得混乱无序。他陷入了深度抑郁。医院的环境——中西部的一家州立机构——让他感到惊恐害怕。他看到医院里的其他病人是多么不幸，他们的生活是如何被毁掉的。他担心自己会彻底崩溃，最终像其他人一样变成植物人。他感到自己被彻底抛弃，孤苦伶仃。他无处求助。他觉得父亲和家人已经完全与他为敌，抛弃了他。渐渐地，他的状况有所改善，抑郁情绪也消退了。当他终于出院时，却发现自己无处可去；没有任何地方让他觉得有归属感。他在那个地区逗留了一段时间。他找到了一份工作，能够自给自足。但他感到孤独，觉得自己没有成功。他交朋友很困难，也找不到自己的位置。他最终想到，自己需要去另一个地方，开始新的生活，找一份新工作，最重要的是，找到一个可以亲近的女人，与她建立温暖而持久的关系，一个他可以爱，也会爱他、照顾他的女人。于是，他决定来波士顿。